April 15th, 2017

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 After 12 hours I can't feel any effect. 60bpm as usual. This one don't calm the mind, just the body. Any of this pills can't stop grinding my teeth. Again a lot of stupid dreams. Body feels weak but maybe muscles more relaxed. 
My mind is something that I can't stop, never. But instead feel it make me crazy I feel it make me understand more and more the things and the people around me, and I don't like what I see. Too much darkness around, too much selfishness, too much hurted people.
Details, coherence, reasoning, learning, evolution

I need find those people, where are they hiding?

work work work

 Yesterday I worked all day long with the website. I fixed a lot of things. When Michael woke up from his nap, at 10pm, he wanted to play together. I tried, but I left 30 min later. I really don't want spend time on games when I can use that time to relax or earn money. He needs pay bills to get ride of some person but he use all his free time to nap and play games. I understand perfectly that his work makes him tired, it really squeeze his brain. But it's time he stop feeling sorry for himself and fix his issues. He needs to leave his comfort zone. I'm moving on with him or without.

I worked again all day long in the website. I did all that the customer asked me to do. Now I need he send me the rest of the information to finish it. I hate that customers are so slow to send all the information, they pretend I write about their business when I don't know what they do, and anyway my work is about DESIGN, unless they hire me to be their SEO, SEM, community manager or something else. I can't understand how people start a company and can't explain what they do, how they work, what services they offer, why someone has to choose they instead the competition, etc in a professional way.  I should open an adviser's business and start earning money of something that for now I do free. 

I will cook pizza then watch series or movies. I'm a little pissed, this weekend I decided to look for something to watch on Netflix after weeks that I watch nothing, then I watched 2 movies that I had already watched before: Da Vince Code, and Angels and Demons. Maybe I will write down all the movies I watch to avoid waste the few free time I have.